All I Need Is A Little Emotion

I'm supposed to be at school right now. But I walked home after lunch and got my mom to call in an excuse me, I said I was really tired. But honestly, I just don't want to be at school anymore. My brain is tired.
I should have stayed though, because when I got home I had this urge to binge. In my room, there were some chocolates sitting on my bed that my mom picked up for me at the grocery store. I chugged a liter of water and ate them, then sadly, and bowl of icecream. Purged it all until all I was purging was stomach acid. I'm so ashamed. But other than that I haven't eaten since Saturday evening, which I guess is okay.
I hopped on the scale after purging, but I got off so fast before I saw the true number. It did go up to almost 125lbs though. That sickens me. But I do think I am losing weight, my clothes are looser.
I want this, but I don't. I want to have food happily. Ergh.
Well better go be 'sick.'
Bye.