I hate myself.
I am fat.
So grossly bloated.
I can't take it anymore.
I want to starve to death,
And on the way I will be thin.
I want to be pretty.
I want to be happy with myself.
I could hide away in my room for years.
Or even better, I could get away from everyone forever.
Even myself.
I can't stand seeing myself.
Even my hands.
They're just so fat, I can feel it when I close my fists.
I hate it.
My chin is fatter.
My cheeks are fatter, I feel it when I smile.
Even my feet and ankles are disgusting.
I want to die.
I don't want to put up with this,
So I eat.
The more I eat the worse I get.
It's a bad cycle.
Someone save me.
Who I Am
- ElikaPeka23
- Canada
- A 15 year old Canadian teenager, youngest in a family of four and good at school. Sound like a good life to you? Think again. Does a good life consist of cutting, drug addictions, and eating disorders?
4 comments:
I wish I could save you darling!! Or do something to make you feel better :(
Just know that I am rooting for you!!
^ what Eden said
Also, please know it will get better. I know how you feel, I've felt like that myself, but sooner or later it WILL be better. It WILL.
In the meanwhile, take it easy- try to stick to eating just fruit and vegetables, and go for a run if you haven't already (or ride a bike or something like that; outside is better) - it'll feel heaps better afterwards. Hot showers also make me feel better, so try that, maybe
oh no i feel so sorry for you. i know this may sound stupid or shallow to you but i looked at you stats, your the same height as me and already weigh less than my goal weight. you're just fine, trust me. if you want to know what all we girls think of your body you could upload a picture of your tummy or legs and you'll receive positive feedback, i'm quite convinced.
sending you lots of strength and cyber hugs,
<3
Eden; I appreciate it, thanks. :]
Slow Cheetah: :) I'm going to do that, thanks it's a good idea! And I went for a run today, it felt great even though the weather was horrid.
Elegant Thinspo: I love hugs, hehh. I am thinking about uploading pictures. I used to be fine with this weight, but that was before I had a lower weight. Now that I know what it feels like to be thinner than this I can't stand this weight.
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