Thursday, April 22, 2010

Pictures at 125lbs, after gaining 15lbs from binging + purging and trying to self recover.

I know I really shouldn't be complaining abouy my body since my BMI says I'm at the low end of the healthy weight range. But I can't help it! I hate it and I wish I never gained 15lbs. People always doubt me when I say I've gained, but I used to be smaller and I miss it so much! I'm working at getting back there.



Stomach and hips.
I've lost my hip bones.

I don't like my stomach all that much.
And I've lost my tiny waist. ='(



My legs.
I do not enjoy having thighs that touch, they apear to barely touch in this picture because I was bent over a bit to get a good angle.
This is the first time they've touched in almost a year!
A lot of my jeans are too tight now, Eurrgh.
Carido is key for weight loss! I've started running again and have been cutting out high carb foods and I am already seeing results.

Stomach laying down.
Ick, just plain ick. I don't like it.
I have this lump of fat under my belly button and it pisses me off.
Plus, as you can see, more fat around my hip bones.
What you can't see is that my ribs barely show anymore.
God, I feel awful.
I wish I could love my body..

The sad thing is that a bit over a year ago I would have been so satisfied with my body like this. But I so desire to be 110lbs AND LESS again, because I was more self confident then and all that.
A big part of my motivation is that I'll be able to fit into my favorite jeans again, and I can wear tightish shirts without feeling like I'm hanging out everywheres.

4 comments:

Kristal said...

You're still beautiful. Good luck with the cardio and carb thing. I was never very good at the carb counting stuff. <3

slow cheetah. said...

you look really thin
my stomach is horrible, much worse than yours (yours doesn't look bad anyway).

Me: said...

i wish i had your body!

ElikaPeka23 said...

Kristal: Thankyou, I can have days where I am so motivated to go for a run and other days I have no motivation whatsoever, xox

Slow Cheetah: I really am not very thin, if you see the whole picture together its just eughhh.
I'm sure your stomach isn't horrible!

Eden: Awwh .. I don't know what to say to that. But keep working towards your goals!