I ate pizza, a chocolate orange, and chips + dip. I only managed to purge a little bit and I'm looking fatter by the millisecond.
I cut too. And I cut last night. My left arm is basically destroyed. Goddamnit. And the spring weather is here .. no tshirts for me this year.
I'm so fed up with food and fat. I've got to lose weight before I kill myself! Nothing besides water, pickles and lettuce + carrots + celery is going to pass my lips until I lose at least 15lbs.
I'm not going to eat until next Tuesday.
I better be under 120lbs by then or my life is over.
PS: Even though I was out of control with those nasty creations called food, I managed to not eat icecream .. and icecream is my worst binge food. So I guess that's a plus ... maybe.
Shit I still feel awful. FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT.
I need a hug.
2 comments:
Aww, sorry it didn't work out hun, but everyone has their bad days.
And I totally understand about the cutting; a couple of months ago I cut for the first time in over a year, I was so angry at myself!! I love the feeling but I hate the scars..
Better luck tomorrow, remember what's at stake.
xxx
Thanks (:
Yeah me too, if cuts didn't leave scars I'd probably cut so much more.
Sorry to hear you cut again though! ):
xox
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